Thanks for the support guys!
I have oodles of messages from the kin on my phone but have not called any of them back, as of yet. On one of the messages, my sister put the kids on and they're of course crying and asking "Why don't you wuv us anymo'?" with lots of "Wahhhhhh" in the background.
Biggest brother left a steamed message about being offended that I'd think he'd think of me only as a bank, and says he'd pay me back but, y'know, he has kids, and "If I loved them" I shouldn't want them to "go without, too." The inference here is still that I owe them something, and that I'm responsible somehow for my sister's dilemma.
So, a friend of mine posed a question to me regarding my situation and said "I wonder if your family would try to sue you for child support, or something? I wonder if they'd win? You don't have kids and have been keeping them propped up for a long time, now." I don't know that they would sue, but I'm certain to get more emotional blackmail attempts, shortly.
My siblings have all borrowed money, but I've never told them all
that they all
borrow money. I've kept everyone's business a secret, but in total, I've loaned out over $200,000 between them all, and that's just what I've kept track of. I'll never see a penny of it back, and I know that. That could have bought like 10 cars, or a small house! Think of all the vacations I could have taken, and places I could have visited? I'm so stupid. I'm glad that I was able to help them all out, but I did it while compromising our safety and comfort (my fiance, pets and me). I want to live somewhere safe, and we can totally afford it now that I'm not helping them out. The Fiance is being better about not lending money as well. We are prioritizing us and our future safety and comfort.
About the fiance, guys, I feel terrible. When I first told him what my sister was asking he was all for taking on those kids, all five of them, no second thoughts about it--of course we'd take them in. Where else would they go? The street? Foster care? They're family. Then, he found out that my sister and mother didn't trust him to live in the same house as the kids. I have never seen him more hurt. I am torn between telling my family what I really think (probably the most respectful track-maybe they'll see it my way and try to make up?) or just change my number and have no contact (spare them my wrath, and spare myself emotional conflict.) My fiance is done. He'll never speak to either of my mother or sister ever again.
What a mess!